Now I'm home with my leg in a boot, but it needs to be elevated and immobilized much of the time. What does this mean for me. It means when I'm in my chair I have my footplate on the right side which I discover makes it impossible for me to get as close to things as I used to.. When I don't have to be in my chair, I am on the couch with my leg elevated and iced much of the time. It's important to keep my leg as still as possible and put no weight on it. We don't want bones to shift and create even more of an issue than I already have. It means my independence is totally decreased. I must depend on others. I am so thankful I have others I can depend on.
I had been contacted by my college friend about the LeadHer program before I headed out for summer vacation and service dog training. I had left it that I would get back to her when I returned in July. Well, I did, and my time to sit gave me a lot of time to research this program. God's timing is so perfect. The May training video was titled "Be Still." Look at the time God gave me when I could do nothing but be still. Being still is HARD. I found myself wanting to fill my time on the couch with reading or researching stuff. And, that is all good stuff (if you're reading soul nourishing stuff). I read tons of great books during this summer and learned so much. But, sitting still and listening to God is HARD. Quiet is HARD. I feel like I should be doing something all the time and even when there are those who can do for me, it is still not easy and relaxing. My personality wants to do for myself. But, I couldn't. So, I learned to let go and let others do for me even if it wasn't the way I would have done it myself. I hope that's a lesson I learned that I will hold onto even when I can do more.
"God proves to be good to the man who passionately waits, to the woman who diligently seeks. It's a good thing to quietly hope, quietly hope for help from God. It's a good thing when you're young to stick it out through the hard times. When life is heavy and hard to take, go off by yourself. Enter the silence. Bow in prayer. Don't ask questions: Wait for hope to appear. Don't run from trouble. Take it full-face. The "worst" is never the worst." Lamentations 3:25-30 MSG
I couldn't spend a lot of time blogging and sitting at my computer. That was frustrating for me and the reason I was absent for much of the summer. Healing takes energy. So, even though I already need a ton of sleep and a nap most every afternoon, I needed even more sleep. Who would have thought sitting on the couch doing nothing would wear me out? But it did, I spent much of the summer on the couch, much of it sleeping. Guess I should have expected my body to take energy from somewhere to knit bones together. Who knew?
But, I can do this. I should get the boot off and be back to normal life by the end of August.
TO BE CONTINUED . . .
What is it like for you to be still?
Have you ever been forced to be still?
How did you fill your time?
Do you practice being still on a regular basis?
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Thanksgiving for the day:
76. The joy of my son as he looks at his prize from Bingo last night
77. Amazon wish list
78. Happy sounds coming from kid's bedrooms
79, Our daughter asking to make dinner
80. No coat needed in mid-November
81. Being kicked out of my kitchen
82. Kids who "dress" for dinner
83. Candlelit dinner of pizza rolls and Dr. Pepper with china and long stem glasses and mood music